Sunday Scaries

A dream is a wish your heart makes. 

I have to be honest, I haven’t heard that song in quite a long time. I chose a random playlist to put on as I write in bed before going to sleep. I am usually dreading the rigidity of going to work on Monday’s, but tonight I feel totally at peace. 

This song, “A dream is a wish your heart makes” came on and I kind of lit up inside. As I get older, the meaning becomes more and more clear to me. That the depths of our soul know exactly what we long for, that our heart knows just what we need. So many of us go through life, with our heart in one place and our mind in another. We barely have time to scroll through Instagram on the toilet, let alone to align our bodies with our hearts, minds and souls. 

We go through life wandering and wondering what we “should” do with our lives. When the truth is, if we listened to our hearts and believed in ourselves, we would go after the exact thing that we know deep down we align with. Instead we get caught up, we compare ourselves to others, and allow our heads get clouded with… you guessed it - fear. 

And in our day to day lives, we feel fear on such a macro level. It’s more than this elaborate big idea of figuring out what we want to do with our lives, it’s the fact that we have to wake up tomorrow to go to a job that we aren’t quite sure is what we are supposed to be doing with our lives or what we fear we might be stuck doing forever. 

The sad thing is, I think there is a part of me that just thinks I should be scared and that thinks I should be miserable, so I automatically go right to that place. And to be honest, there is no beauty there. There is no gain there. It is a place of always being down, and looking down and thinking that down is the only option. I am here to tell you that down is not the only option. Thinking things will always somehow go wrong or you will have bad luck is not a way to live. It is a way to fear. 

I know, because for so long I lived it. I lived from a place that didn’t serve me, it hindered me. As a millennial finding my way, and so far going what feels like one-one hundredth of the distance, I want to help other millennials, who feel stuck, who actually believe the people who say “everyone hates their job”, who believe that life is hard and that’s the only option. There are always two paths available to us: love and fear. And when we choose love, we live love, and when we choose fear, we choose not to live the life that has been given to us to our full potential. And that in itself should be a tragedy enough to ignore everything that makes us believe in anything but love. 

Have faith in your dreams and someday

Your rainbow will come smiling through